My friend gave me this cute Pokémon picture so I’m gonna hang it up!! 友達にもらったポケモンもの！使用が知らないけどきっと飾るものなんでしょう。 #pokemon #pokemoncenter #pikachu #ポケモン #ピカチュウ #ポケモンセンター
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When your roommate comes home at almost 2 and brings friends with him who talk loudly and you’re like. Really.
i found these notebooks from sixth grade a few weeks ago at my grandparents’ house and they were notebooks i needed to use for class, so we would write about our day, poems, free write, etc. i did a lot of poems and i wrote a couple stories, and wrote a lot about my daily life and drama between friends. and i have to say!! 1. i dont think anyone else would necessarily understand why the old stuff is so funny, but i was cracking up at like everything i was reading because i was such a weird kid. like i always knew i was this like “Random” kid but like i was all over the place hyper and i was so weird. i wrote a poem about mcdonalds, about bowling for soup, about bobobo bo bobobo.
sixth grade was around when i started getting depressed, and i can see little inklings of it in my notebooks. there were a few pages where it was blatantly obvious that i was depressed because i would write about how my sister probably hates me, and how i hate myself, and stuff like that, but it was covered up by all this energetic entries and drawings. but! something that surprised me was that i wrote very openly about some of my medical condition things like, i can’t remember any examples, but i remembered writing something about having to do enemas, i think once or twice. and like. it made me realize that i hadn’t quite had it drilled into my head that i couldn’t be open about my medical condition, because like if it were a year or two later i would absolutely never write about that in a place i knew would be read by someone else. it made me a little sad that in such a short amount of time (definitely in the span of two years later) i became disgusted (?) by my own body and disabilities. like clearly my mom had not raised me to feel weird about that kind of stuff, our family was always really open about our bodies and would like. hang out in the bathroom together? but i remember being told by my dad and stepmom not to tell my friends about my medical condition because no one would want to be friends with me.
OK SO I BROUGHT THAT UP BECAUSE IM WATCHING THE SECOND GUYS LIVESTREAM HES DOING RN ON MORE OLD PETSCOP VIDS AND LIKE A MINUTE AFTER I POSTED THAT HE MENTIONED THE BUTTON THING AGAIN
over the past few months i’ve experienced youtubers being kind of assholes to their subscribers/people watching their videos?
Neither of these examples are too extreme or THAT bad, but they both bothered me. idk if i’m gonna name names rn but if someone asks i’ll probably say who, and who knows, depending on what you watch, you might be able to tell from context.
the first one i was watching them play ultimate custom night to try and beat 50/50 mode (?) over the course of various livestreams. And with this person, they got so far after a while but ended up getting stuck and would take like hours just to beat a new trial. and he would just get like angry at the commenters who were trying to give him advice, maybe some people were just telling him what to do, i’m sure some people were being kind of rude about it or annoying. and like i can imagine if i were in the youtuber’s position, i’d be pretty annoyed too. but this person would just like take breaks and like almost yell at the viewers for commenting things, and then he would get so far and beat another round and would like apologize for getting mad, but then make excuses. and like idk. i can understand why you might like get angry especially when you’re trying to beat something really hard. but it would just like take me out of it, i would feel like, damn. hes getting so mad. like. its just a game. and its not like he gave himself a time limit to beat the mode i dont think? he just wasn’t allowed to forfeit.
and then a couple weeks ago i was watching a livestream of another youtuber who makes analysis videos on petscop, and he was doing this like analysis of the earlier petscop videos to get ready to make a full analysis video of the more recent videos. and the stream starts out normal. i remember him mentioning in a different petscop stream that he had problems with anger, so it could definitely just be this. he didn’t get like. ANGRY. he didn’t even yell like the other youtuber, but he was mad. he got to a point like a minute into the first petscop video where he was reminded about how on the pause screen or something, the button for “go back” was like. shaking, as if it were some kind of warning about the game. i’ve heard this mentioned before, i can literally never see it in videos on my own (lol), but i think it’s a solid theory. but this guy like goes on this rant for like at least five minutes (it felt very long) about how he had mentioned this in one of his actual analysis videos, and that he got hundreds of replies like all the time about how that shaking was just because of the game’s programming. and he got so upset with people for not understanding his theory, and saying that he felt hesitant to give more theories because he didn’t want to be constantly reminded of his mistake or whatever. and he went on this rant about how people just dont pay attention to foreshadowing or clear literary aspects of args and the like. and like he went on forever and like, was clearly genuinely frustrated about it, but it felt like he was scolding us and its like. i can see where he’s coming from, especially because i agree with it. but also like. you’re saying that this is just your theory, you’re not stating it as fact, yet people are getting upset with you. while like. you’re doing the same thing? people are also like. saying they disagree with your theory. and youre saying no, its clearly there in the video as foreshadowing. like. it was just contradictory and felt very patronizing and VERY annoying and like i was like are you ok? can we move past this ? you just started the video and i didnt sign up for this.
